It wasn't our first date, or first phone conversation.. or first sexual experience together... it was the date of our first email exchange. That has been the date we celebrated each month of each year for the past 2 years. Unfortunately, Mark was out of town on business so we didn't celebrate the day together.. but, we plan to do that next week.
We are escaping ... 3 days.. in the Big Apple.. to see a Yankee game, do some fine dining.. maybe a show and relish the time away from life as it is here. It will be a celebration of still loving each other after all that has gone on.. despite the break ups.. the disappointments... the dreams we shared... the hopes that still loom large.. We are still each others best friends.
Yes, Mark is still married and living at home with his wife and children. There is no plan in place... and I have resigned myself to living my life, keeping busy and not having an expectation of anything happening anytime soon. I still dream the dream. I still receive an email from him and write him an email everyday. I still thank God for having met this man that truly taught me to love unconditionally and be loved in return.
On our anniversary date.. my email ended with this small piece:
So, thank you for writing that email (on July 19, 2009). For finding me. For loving me. For being my best friend and lover. For making me smile more than I have in a very long time. For these 2 years and hopefully for many more to come. For the days when everything is right with my world.
Today, 2 years later... life may not be what I had planned as my "happily ever after".. but, I don't regret a single thing, for ... I have been truly blessed to have fallen in love with my best friend.