(posted by Jen)
I know we have been lapse at posting...
Yesterday was one month from the day we broke up. It also would have been our 16 month 'anniversary' as a couple. There is some irony that the 19th signifies both days.. the best and the worse.
It has been difficult to come back to this page.. for both of us. Hard to think about writing anything when we have no good news to share at this point. Hard to talk about who we "were" as a couple and who we "are" now as a non couple.
Many of you have found my other blog and left some very nice comments. Supportive, sympathetic and kind. I thank you for that and just for caring still about us both. Understanding the tough choices going on here and how hard it is to try to keep you all informed.
Mark has really had difficulty putting "pen to paper" even though I know he would like to. Neither of us are having an easy time here.
Just so you know... we still chat daily. We don't really see each other so, that emptiness is very painful. But, the plus side to this is all is... we have communicated our feelings to a deeper level than we have in a very long time. Laying all those cards on the table so to speak. We do the day to day.. so, yes.. we are still alive...
but .. not really living.
Thank you all for being such wonderful "blog" friends.. we do appreciate all of you more than you know.
1 day ago